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| First things first...new xanga: Sreed418, I thought it was fitting.
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Eastern Michigan University really isn't making a good impression on me thus far. They are pissing me off already and school hasn't even started.
I really know I need to be optimistic about this upcoming year, but everything is making it so hard. I shouldn't need to be convinced by a school to go there, but right now I do, and Eastern isn't doing a good job of it.
I am trying so hard to get excited and happy about this, but I jusdt can't seem to pull it out of me. | | |
| "I'm so tired of being alone, I'm so tired of 'on-my-own', won't you help me?"
So so true lyrics...
I've been hanging with Jen all weekend which is great because we hadn't even seen eachother in years. I finally feel like there is someone who will always be there to not only lean on but just to hang out with. I have tons of great friends, but we never do anything. Me and Jen on the other hand have been doing everything together the last few days. I also saw my best friend from second grade, Katie, at a hockey game, which was awsome...since I hadn't seen her since second grade!
Anyways...all weekend I've been around people who have boyfriends or girlfriends...I mean everyone I've hung out with is with someone. Kinda sucks being alone sometimes. Actually...it really sucks!
Let me reiterate...
"I'm so tired of being alone, I'm so tired of 'on-my-own', Won't you help me?"
Note to self: Listening to sappy love songs doesn't help much! | | |
| "There is so much more in love than black and white"
Last night was AMAZING! I went to see Howie Day, Michael Tolcher and Gavin DeGraw. It surprises me how much music can move you and affect you. Live music cannot be held in comparison to ANYTHING. I can't even describe the concert last night.
It just made me realize how bad I want to be in Memphis...I can't wait until next year when I will finally be living the life I want to live and not the life I have to live. I was talking to Charlotte about enjoying our young years. We sort of disagreed on where we are at in our lives. She is completely taking advantage of the age she is while I can't wait to move on. The reason is that I so want to be living a life that I plan not one dictated by others.
Anyways, I do feel content where I am...for now. I realize all the lessons I've learned and how far I've come. I am finally seeing that I can enjoy life and not constantly be concerned with preparing myself for the next step. This next year is going to interesting. It is somewhat of an "in-between-phase" in my life, so I plan on laying low and taking it all in. Then it's finally on to Memphis. | | |
| Despite the few morning arguments, my day went well.
My Open House was quite amazing. I want to thank everyone who showed up, and I want to thank you a lot because it shows that you care. For some people that was too hard to ask.
As great as today was and all the money I made!!!! I still missed having some very important people spending a big day with me. I've come to the conclusion that it is their loss completely.
My summer is coming full circle and I REALLY want to thank those of you who shared it with me today.
Thanks again. | | |
| Wow, this week has been so insanely crazy!
I think y'all know by now, but my open house is tomorrow and that's been keeping me busy. I've had to deal with a lot of family/friend crap this week, but tomorrow is going to be GREAT!
Anyways, I feel like I need to write something meaningful in here so...
I'm realizing how much we take people for granted. I always focus on the people who screw me over, but I never thank those who are ALWAYS there for me. I want to thank you all now, you should know who you are (April!).
Now I have to go get ready to pick my brother and my niece from the airport. Hope to see some of you folks tomorrow, and hopefully it won't rain!
Con amor, salud, y felicidad! | | |
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